The past year I have been through a hell of a lot that honestly some of you probably won’t even believe! Along this year of tough situations, mental breakdowns and so much more I have learned a lot about myself and my mental health.
The first lesson I have learned this year has been a huge eye opener for me. As the abuse continued in my house, I felt alone. I felt like I was the only one who seen my father for the scumbag he is.
With my mum, my boyfriend and my siblings I can get through absolutely anything that the world throws at me.
This year I realised I was not alone. It may have taken my family longer to stand up and side with me verbally and in front of my father but they did it.
I was always the one to bottle up how I felt and never discuss it with my boyfriend which always ended up in a fit. Counselling helped me a lot to learn that I can be open and honest with my boyfriend about how I was feeling and he would always be there for me no matter what.
It took a long time for me to learn this but I’m glad I did.
My writing can inspire people.
I began sharing my writing when I was 13. I started with writing a story on Wattpad and i slowly began to stop as my life became a whole lot messier.
I recently started back up with my writing six months ago and I have been so happy that many people have been following my writing.
I wrote about many things and mental health is a huge topic on my blog. I have had many comments and messages regarding my blog saying they love my blog and that it will inspire many people about sharing their own experiences.
I have become more confident with sharing my writing and helping others.
I don’t need to go to uni to do well in life.
As I have previously mentioned in a post here. I have mentioned about not going into further education. I felt disappointed and annoyed at myself for not feeling well enough mentally to go.
I was scared that people would look down on me and my family would be disappointed in me. I soon learned that I don’t need anyone’s approvement in regards to my decision making. I am old enough to make my own decisions and I believe this is the best option for me now.
It’s okay to not go to university if you aren’t ready. You don’t need to go to university to be successful in life. I am now running my own blog and business!
It’s okay to not be okay.
For as long as I can remember I could never talk about how I felt. I have always hated being vulnerable and showing emotions. I don’t like showing emotions but this year I learned that it’s okay to not be okay.
I learned this the hard way after a few months of counselling and I slowly began opening up to my boyfriend and I have been a whole lot better in explaining how I feel and control my anger instead of bottling it all up and exploding over the slightest inconveniences.