Hey guys, welcome back to my blog. Today is a raw and emotional post. I am writing A letter to my younger self. I have previously written a letter to my abusive father as a guest post here.
Here is my letter to my younger self.
To my younger self,
Hi, it’s me your future self. I have wanted to write this letter for a long time now to tell you some things that you need to know.
You are strong.
I know it feels like you are worthless, undeserving of happiness or love. You believe you are are nothing. The darkness is becoming unbearable and you are contemplating on something that you won’t be able to take it back.
Let me set you straight, you are strong, beautiful, kind, caring and brave. There are so many things that you will do throughout the next couple of years that will prove all those negative thoughts are wrong. You are stronger than you know.
You can get through this.
Life is tough and I know it seems like you won’t get through this. I promise you will get through this. You will come out on the other side.
There are people who are will come into your life and make it so much brighter. I know you feel alone right now but it will get better. You have so many great things coming your way.
You will win against him.
He seems unbeatable and that he has everyone wrapped around his little finger. I’ll let you in on a little secret, you will win against him.
It will take a few years, a lot of fighting, tears, lonely days and nights. It will be long, hard and exhausting battle. Mum, Kenneth, Karen and Thomas will begin to see that man in his true colours. You won’t be the only one seeing him as he is for much longer.
You will win against him. I know this because I am now living my life without that vile man. I am now free. You will be free soon too.
You will be diagnosed with mental illness.
Mental illness has always been a huge part of our life. We didn’t have a name for it during our childhood until last year. Last year you will be diagnosed with mental illness.
Depression and anxiety as a matter of fact. It’ll be a hard battle but you will get through it.
Depression and anxiety will not stop you travelling, writing, starting a blog and working on my career in my blog and writing.
You are fearless.
Let me tell you all the fearless actions you will do in the near future. You will learn to stand up for yourself. You will begin to stand your ground. When things get hard with family life you will ring the police on your abusive dad.
The truth comes out because you are fearless and not scared of that man anymore. You are the reason the whole family stuck together throughout the whole court battle. You are the strength and backbone to the Carty family.
Yes you go through the process of changing your name. Stay strong and positive. You will get through this.
Thank you for reading this letter. Do you have anything you would like to say to your younger self? Let me know in the comments below! Please like/comment/share and subscribe if you enjoy reading these posts. If you like reading posts on mental health click here.