The past year has been a tough year for me. Full of stress and worry. Also being diagnosed with depression and anxiety didn’t help either.
Recently I have been very stressed due to being in my final year in school. It sucks!
In a little over a month I will be walking back into school to face my state exams. I’m really not looking forward to it at all but I probably should be studying a lot more! I should maybe not be working on this blog as much as I should be right now but I LOVE it.
The stress has had me physically and mentally exhausted but I have found a way to deal with it! This strategy has also helped me deal with my worries and fears and I’m going to tell you just how I came across this amazing technique.
So before I burst into this story I’ll give you some background because it won’t make sense if I don’t!
I have had a very tough childhood and the past year I’ve began dealing with all these problems and finally talking to people about how I feel. Let me tell you depression and anxiety sucks. I hate it but it makes me who I am.
Some days I can be in a great mood and do so many productive things during the day and then the other days I can barely get out of bed or have the motivation or concentration to do anything except curl up in a ball for the whole day.
The story begins on one of the latter mornings.
I woke up and couldn’t face the world. It was a school day and I could not stand walking into school that day faking a smile or trying to keep my head up. Doing that is so hard and exhausting. My mum wasn’t home so I shot her a quick text to ask if I could stay out of school that day.
Next thing I had to do was struggle into my school uniform and pretend to my gran that I was going to school that day. I know! I know! Lying is bad and I shouldn’t have lied to my gran but she doesn’t understand what it’s like to deal with depression so I took the easiest option in this situation.
As I left the house I decided to go for a walk along the River Inny in my town that is a two minute walk away from my house.
I slowly walked behind the playground, following the course of the river until I couldn’t hear any cars or any signs of human life. My hands were shoved deep i my jacket pockets as it was a cold,chilly morning for warmth against the sharp wind.
As the sounds of the water crashing against the side of the river and rushing past I was overcome with an overpowering sense of calmness and clarity.
All my worries and stress automatically faded away and drowned in the constant movement of the fast, flowing water.
The sudden calmness after such a long period of time was so overwhelming I had to sit down at the edge of the river to allow it to sink in. The sound of the birds high above my head in the treetops and the rushing of the river in front of me were the only sounds I could hear.
The scene was so surreal that I just sat in silence transfixed on the river.This has now become my spot. The place that I need to go to when everything gets too much for me. I can breathe there and think clearly.
The ten years I’ve been living in this town I had no idea this tranquil safe haven was a mere two minute walk away from my house.
I’d definitely encourage all of you to go explore your hometown. You never know you could find your quiet place. The instant tranquillity that takes over your body is mind blowing. The calm state of mind you find yourself in is utterly amazing. Being in nature can do wonders when you aren’t feeling good.
The fresh air clears your mind and the feeling is so refreshing when you have so many thoughts running through your mind every single second of the day and most nights when you’re unable to sleep on those restless nights.
Find your happy place and reduce your stress.Thank you for reading my first ever blog post!